Letters to a stranger 2...Cross Roads

Here I am again at the same cross road I was for a really long time and i had even began to convince myself that I had gone past it. But here I am again at the same spot I was a year ago.
The same spot thinking of moving on. But how can I?? How can I fight this battle?? How can I go to a war that the victor has already been decided even before the war begins. How do I convince myself that I have moved on from you.... Lool that's just crazy cause that would be like telling a deaf man that he is blind. 
Everyone keeps saying I should move on "G you're bigger than one girl" "why are you acting like a baby ?" they all keep saying. The manner in which I am to explain to them how much I have tried and failed severally at the task of moving on eludes me. 
But then again do I really want to move on?? I have grown so much in to you I feel like you are more than a part of me. Even when I was forming hard guy while you were keeping your distance from me, i still felt that void. 
How can I have fallen so much for you?? How is it possible that everyday I want to start up a chart with you but somehow I restrain myself for fear that I might just say how crazily I'm still in love with you or how foolish I am for always wanting to talk you. But still I can't keep away from you Jemima you are all I want.... This isn't me!!!!!! the real me is the hard guy but your smile alone crumbles my hard face... The sound of your voice saying "hello" every time I call soaks me deeper in this pool of love. I know I have wronged you and heaven knows how sorry I am if I could take it all back I would but that can never happen that's why I look ahead and just hope that maybe somehow you would give me another chance. But how?? How can you give me another chance when I have hurt you so deep? That's what my head keeps telling my heart but still I remain resolute that some how I am sure you still feel something for me. 
Today I had mustered up enough courage to tell you how I feel and prayed that the consequences of this action won't be as bad as I imagined. So I picked up my phone clicked on your name said hi you replied quiet well asked about your day you said you spent it with friends within I felt well this might just be my luck day cause you seemed quiet happy judging from your replies. Just when I decided to say what was on my mind you said you were going to bed. How cruel can fate be...... So here I am again at the same cross road wondering what to do. I still love you Jemima but convincing you that I sincerely do and getting you and I back to our previous 'us' status still remains a mystery. The question here is how??

It's been a while....

Hey guys...
long time, it's been a while.
Our sincere apologies, we've been very busy and caught up with work and other personal stuff...but now things are settling down we promise to update regularly.

On the plus side hope you all enjoyed the Olympics and are looking forward to the Para-Olympics!!

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